Homicidal/Suicidal
Tambako the Jaguar / Flickr

Tambako the Jaguar / Flickr

I really want to hurt someone now. I want to grab hold of someone’s hair and bash their skull against a dest over and over again until there’s blood all over. I want to pin someone down to the ground and slash that person’s face with anything that’s sharp. 

Little boy lost by Murata from Deviantart

Little boy lost by Murata from Deviantart

Bought a pack of blades for dissecting knife. So much for recovery. If I’m not hurting myself I’m having massive urge to set things on fire.

Dexter’s kill tools

Dexter’s kill tools

New ways to deal with self injury?

1. Set things on fire

2. Take a shot or two

3. Smoke

4. Force myself to take a nap

Cutting. I’m so out of practice. 

So much for staying clean. I just want to feel alive even for a second.

Suicide by durkheim from Deviantart

Suicide by durkheim from Deviantart